I do not want to do this. It’s not that I can’t or won’t, I’m just so tired of it. It doesn’t help me in the pursuit of happiness, it doesn’t even really help me financially, so it is essentially one giant waste of my life. I’m frightened to think I might be here for an extended duration. I’ve just got to keep pushing, and one day, I won’t have to worry about helping people that are too weak to choose goodness.